ME

I just stared at the word. ME was the most used word in all my Facebook statuses for 2015.

My first thought was that the stupid Facebook app was wrong. I expected and wanted my word to be like my Facebook friend’s word. Her most used word was her kid’s name and joy. But not me. My word was ME. I felt shallow and self-centered. I decided right then that I was NOT going to share the results on my Facebook page!

After I recovered from my self afflicted guilt, I looked at the photo again. ME was in the center but then I saw that all around that word were other words that were also the most used words. God and Pray were in the top two which made me reconsider the word ME and put it into a different context.

When I actually looked back and read my status posts for 2015, most of them read ‘pray for me’, ‘God moments…me’, or ‘God has me right where He wants me to be’. I actually started to feel better about my most used word of 2015, ME.

The word started to make sense. At the beginning of 2015, I embarked on sharing my journey to becoming a mother. My writing took a different turn as I opened my soul and story with all of you. Never did I think I would be sharing something so personal and painful on my blog. Never did I think that God would ask me to trust Him and obey Him. AND, never did I once think that I would be going to a writer’s conference and have clarity to write. But, you prayed for ME.

Not only did I never I think I would be writing my story but I never could have imagined that the Small Town Girl’s family would move from our Midwestern roots and our home of 22 years to new house in tropical South Florida. But, you prayed for ME. (Otherwise, I wouldn’t be sitting here in South Florida where it is virtually a ‘Midwesterner’s summer’ everyday and 68 degrees is winter weather!)

As I look back at 2015, I can’t believe all the changes in my life. Change is not something I throw open my arms and embrace. God knows that. And, He knew I would need people to pray for ME.

So friends, as you make goals or plan to change your life in 2016, I want to leave you with some thoughts that I had at the beginning of 2015.